absence of

 a constant disappointment

a fear of being forgotten

jealously

wondering

let down, let down, let down etc.

sadness

grief

boredom

nostalgia

melancholy

self reckoning

delusion both positive and negative  

hope

the horrible absence of it

lack of libido

not horny 

mundane tasks

overthinking

love

lust

envy

aggravation

acceptance

pondering

recounting

pain shopping

bleeding out

constant visions 

anger

acceptance

denial

compartmentalization 

rationalize or die

desire

love

lust

disgust 

the absolute end of the world

reckoning

accepting

pain

freedom

realizations

more disgust

constructive conversations

temporary distractions

chatting with blossoming friends who walk past

videos on stoicism 

videos on acceptance

i don't care if you know i love you

or if you know how deeply i care

i don't care if it boosts your ego

more power to you

i do love you

and i will forever

and i don't want you back

i wouldn't touch you with a 10 ft pole

but fuck

do i love you


 



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